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你去了新的学校，我去了新的公司，这就是9月9号发生的两件事。

同步真像是电影。

哭成这样把我吓坏了，然后想想平时损就损吧有什么大不了的（是不是在自己埋自己…

9点起床后听了一上午Muse，想想乡巴佬曾经也能一本正经写出tonight we can truly say together we’re invincible真是够治愈。

电话中清晰的完全不像是8个时区外地球另一边，歌词日记本还没舍得打开看，就好像是容易挥发的香水一定要小心留香，等到明年这个时候才不会忘记翻出她的每个镜头。

往后两个礼拜的日程：

9月13日 BRMC（请吃货们大餐）

9月14日 学校正装拍照

9月18日 黑兔（未定）

9月19日 公司报道

blog换了个新皮肤，以后就多更新总结汇报咯

这些天常想估计除了英语大概就没有个比我在的更差的专业了，还不如当时犹豫再三没有填的心理学。要真是个小语种的话也就来之安之了。

几封HR的回邮还在路上，估计面试也要做好碰壁的准备，国外都是二年级再决定专业，当然我也就不吐槽什么让自己为难了。

认真考虑下是不是要跨专业考研，心仪的无非就是电子商务，用户体验，SEO，前端设计这几个方向，高端点交互设计这种没几年功夫也高攀不起。上海的新兴互联网项目相比北京杭州真是少的可怜。plus有个女硕士在身边说没压力那心理状态真是比百度用户还可悲。

先实在点吧。

still nobody

1) 自從準備投簡歷之後的幾天financial markets就沒怎麼動過，沒有個強制的schedule果然不行，明天和tina出去調整一下，後天週日開始兩天一課。

2) 睡前去下了幾張磚 ，聽歌一直就是我生活的rss，每一張專輯都有一段時間記憶，也難怪整個6月份考試完後就輕飄飄的沒有進度感。

3) 其实我想说的是，要是若干年后我看到这幅图还是会有种小孩子看见彩虹豆一样的兴奋的话，我会很满足。

既然遲到了就要推倒重來。

第二天出門路上回數了遍今年去年看過的gig，上一次pogo還是10年3月18號在yyt，個像pixies一樣的sub pop punk trio，其實是為了去捧刺蝟新bass第一次亮相的場，於是過去已經15個月。

去年最亢奮的現場其實不是年初冰天雪地的ensiferum，5月底的金屬節雖然有了人生第一次跳水經歷卻怎麼也沒覺得過癮（甜西西的金屬從來不是我的茶）。

所有的宣泄似乎都在年底嘎調那場釋放完了，遺憾的為了趕個苦逼土搖萬能青年旅店錯過了半場，進門的時候人群已經在叫著“你覺得恨卻離不開”，真正的vocal倒成了chorus，除了站在沙發上的整個場地都像是流沙一樣把我們卷了進去。和banana幾個蹭了hit的免費門票被擠到了鼓手身邊，子健客串的貝斯手，詹盼吼麥克風的模樣不知為甚麼讓我像起來戴夫打鼓的樣子，往死了磕的那種，而回頭看見鼓手已經把身體重心完全壓在鼓棒上。lune實在不是livehouse，快要湊到子健琴頭的幾個第一排小姑娘喊著每一句歌詞，返聽傍邊有幾張唱片，我知道她們在追星，whatever，她們來對地方了。最後首猴子D做了快十分鐘的回授，子健像是在抗議這樣一個舞池lounge bar站到了腳跟前的音箱上把bass舉過頭頂砸着天花板。自然台上能砸的都無疑幸免，台上狼藉一片不能站人之後摔倒在鼓桶堆里的詹盼他們就起身跨開一步在我身邊開始抽煙，現在覺得你們那時心裡默念的是不是過幾天還要回到帝都上班朝九晚五，演出時台上不只一人喊出北京搖滾之王，i guess u guys deserve it.

搖滾對我來說其實就是這麼一個角色，大學時候想做個band好好原創起碼能有點established works，這不是我能做的或者應該做的。

but who knows，rock n roll is still in my soul ，就像那天birdstriking在奼紫嫣紅里而我看見的是晨光。

謹此送給由於某人毛肝毛肺倒頭來快樂檸檬一口都沒喝到的tina.

Okay the title’s just a little trick, but i guess you can understand

said that i do not care so much about counting the days, but it feels like being COOL to blog something.

actually what i wanna say is:

look at the baby Kitty, don’t you think it will grow up pretty & strong one day?

Just like who took the pic together.

About one year from now, it was the very first April Fool’s Day of the brand new decade, Blur released first single track called “Fool’s Day” on Record Store Day since their reunion. Graham & Damon said this was nothing to do with business, and the one and only reason is  - “This is wonderful – it feels like we’re kids again”, remember I repeated the song again and again, finally it had me in tears when Damon sung it out:

“The studio

And a love of all sweet music

We just can’t let go”

Even though never did I enjoy Blur as much as Radiohead or even The Verve in terms of their melodies or skills., the story of Blur’s reunion really touched me deeply for it is the MUSIC and the affection of playing songs together that all made it. I totally felt like a kid that day, repeating that song for almost hundreds of times.

And It seemed to be the only delighting moment I could retell that spring. (BTW, before long I made a doulist which more like a curse but has been forsaken for a long long time.)

The REASON? Following the line “We just can’t let go” the lyrics goes to:

“So meditate
On what we’ve all become
On a cold day in springtime”

Sad enough, I cannot share the lovely melody with someone,

and I clearly realize that I DON’T KNOW WHAT THE FUCK SHOULD I DO.

Things changed one year later. It just feels all right.

Met my junior-high-school friends today, there were a few times words almost coming out of my mouth to let them know how I feel recently, but after they kept talking about some phony stuff I decided just to stay aside. I guess nobody can believe it  and it’s sort of wasting time to share our story.

Anyway, I enjoy chatting with my mate on subway home, the feeling of someone is really talking to you instead of collecting information.

Feel so great when you tell me about what you are doing at the same time.

Can I make it any more obvious?